Jumping into a pile of Moon Money

Yes it all flows together, the moon, money and me.  Zac is such an artist and created some moon money one time.  I think that is borrowed from a game.  It is possible to attract large amounts of money into your life, yes(!), the real spendable kind.  It is always best not to be too desperate. Sometimes that is the hard part. I do know. This is where my guides tell me to trust. Trust that the Universe sees you, knows you. Fear seems to create an obstacle that is not easy to explain. Your flow of energy needs to be playful and relaxed. I get tested on this all the time, and I admit to not passing this at every turn. I am getting better.

I have been listening to the Abrahamster stuff and doing a few personal experiments.  I imagine all the many tokens of abundance finding me easily.  It is really more than that.  Abe/Hicks states that having passion and joy creates a magical attraction of abundance in your life.  Just being more engaged in happiness will draw the right people and phenomena of money to you.  Remember the part in Avatar (2009 film) where the little seeds all land on Jake.  His heart is attracting them and he can't even brush them away.  That is called vibrational currency.  That type of energy can lead to playful and significant real dollar amassing.

The reason for today's post is this. I Love doing psychic readings. Link to that site: Angel Bells Hangout.  I meet the most amazing people and when I read for someone else, it always seems to answer one of my own questions as well. Amazing how that happens.  I Did a phone reading last night for an adorable person. This person was telling me that they work from home as a billing entrepreneur. She was feeling isolated and also worrying about bills. There was no real sparkle in her life. I scanned her in my assessing easy way. My guides showed me pictures of her being a gourmet cook and enjoying that. They showed me her grooming cute little dogs. And I saw her doing the country swing at a local country western night club. Three things that add some zest and sparkle to her life. She validated all three things, loves C & W music and dancing, loves to cook for others, loves animals and was a dog sitter at one time. I said, sometimes our passion can lead to money. I saw some creative ways to turn these hobbies and interests into money and it would get her out of the house. She closed that door quickly...saying will I will do my bookkeeping to pay the bills and then I might do some of those things. ¨Oh no, don't wait¨ I exclaimed.  Don't go back to isolating and being in a gloomy closet.

I tried to explain that she had it backwards with the flow of money. She would become a magnet for dollars by enjoying what she does and adding some enthusiasm to her life. It is hard to explain that concept to someone trained in thinking in ¨practical ways¨. We have so much of that programming embedded in us from well meaning others. Clearing this could take time but it doesn't have to. Her present paradigm was not working well anyway..thus she asked for a reading with this moon crazed moon child psychic. She had a grounded way about her and she was adorable on many levels, but it is time for a shift. This linear thinking (work now, play later, gotta keep my nose to the grindstone and ignore my life) really pinches us off from the pot of gold that only each soul can find,...we all need to embrace a more holistic view point.

And what a blessing to me.  I needed to see this clearly...more clearly.

Amen and Amen

adding a great Abraham Hicks Link..enjoy

http://youtu.be/8P0rOqZBAXw

Don't Know Much...But I know I Luv YOU

March 26, 1979 to July 8 2006

I wrote a book about Jason, my son, who accidentally lost his life in California.  Jason was a teacher on so many levels. Parenting Indigo children is different.  It is more of a partnership. They don't do well with authoritative parenting.  They are leading with their heart. They are born wise, sensitive, old souls.  I wish I could do it all over again.  I have let go of any parenting mistakes and realize that I did get it right some of the time!   The relationship I have with Jason has grown.  In a way, he is closer to Zac and I in his eternal energetic form. Instead of hugging, I sense the hugs on the inside. We miss him being turf side, of course. I feel that Jason made this transition for reasons I might not fully understand.  It was not suicide, but, all death is actually agreed upon by the Higher Eternal Self and thus not a dictate of ¨God¨. During Jason's first year of transition, 2006-2007 there was a great deal of phenomena. On Mother's Day I found a card on my pillow. The inscription said, I love you always, unconditionally, Jason. And it was his handwriting.  I asked, Zachary.  He was as amazed as I was.  I write about all this in my book,  ¨Sunflowers for Jason¨.  

Humans have much to Learn from Sasquatch

Sasquatch and the Human Connection

When speaking of Sasquatch or Bigfoot creatures, I am very cautious.  I feel there will be a time we can interact with them more freely.  They are ancient ancestors of the human race.  In being such, you might ask where the fork in the road is?  That is rather sad in my opinion.  

(since posting I found the best discussion on human/alien origin ever.  I am posting this to watch on You Tube when you have an hour or so of down time. )  Star Date:  August 19 2014
http://youtu.be/pe6DN1OoxjE

June 24 2015:  I found the best discussion on Sasquatch ever.  It is the most kind reverent interaction of learning and sharing I have found.  Two guys who live in the woods have made it their mission to understand the Sasquatch's living in this area of Canada. So I hope you will also finish my post and please view this video as well. 
https://youtu.be/dK0gOhO_F48

I had a Bigfoot sighting.  I was driving through the Uintah Basin Mountains at twilight. My two little boys were in the back of the mini van. We pulled off the road out of necessity.  When I started my vehicle back up my headlights caught a pair of eyes that sent a chill through me. It was a very hairy, human like creature.  He was holding onto the side of a mountain ledge. I feel he was trying to get a better look at us.  He was at a about 100 yards away.  From my line of sight  he was about 3 feet tall.  I mean he was much larger in reality, but at my vantage point that was that size.  If you were looking at a human trekking up the side of a mountain,  and you were a distance back, they might appear to be 2 feet high.  Perspective.  

From that short connection, I started listening to stories. I really am good at sniffing out the fake stories, but some encounters fit perfectly with what I sense about Sasquatch Tribe.  I feel they are very intelligent, they have a type of language, they bury their dead.  Most importantly they are inter-dimensional and they have learned to shift between 3rd and 4th density.  They will leave a few clues for us, but unless they really wish to get to know you and have some sort of exchange, it will not happen.  

Like Native American Totem Animals, they can offer their protection to humans.  There are stories of people passing out or sustaining injuries while hiking and being helped by Sasquatches.   Those stories are few and far between for a reason.  

When we are more balanced and able to respect all animals, we will have more interaction.  When we are not a threat, we will have more interaction.  Until then they will remain elusive and for good reason!  

ASMR: A Triumphant Time for Tingles

My Personal Experience

I am such a fan of ASMR. As an experiencer of the marvelous tingly sensations I also am aware of the thousands of others who also are getting tingled daily. There is a joyous and triumphant movement abounding. Someone needs to shout it out and it might as well be me. I jumped on the ASMR tingle wagon when my friend suggested I listen to one YouTube ASMR artist, Amethysts Whispers. Now I'm an addict and I just adore many current ASMR artist. The list of artists keeps evolving as I explore. When I come home after a busy and sometimes stressful day I head for my most comfortable chair, I turn off my phone and put in my ear plugs, and then I drift off to a pleasure zone where self care and "me time" exist in surplus.

The world fades away and I am surrounded by crinkly sounds, and warm whispers, and gentle brushing:  All calming my mind.  It would be enough to be sublimely relaxed but that is not the biggest prize in this session.  Very soon I start feeling pleasure and even more relaxation as I take a little magical ride on the delicious tingle carpet.  It is sheer heaven.  It is like getting a massage and then a little fairy  brushes your face with a feather. A tingle, and explosion of pleasure and a slight tickle sensation engulfs my body.  It is a traveling sensation as the Central Nervous System sparks a response through your brain, face shoulders and back. ASMR is short for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response. There is nothing like it.  It is like a force of nature takes over and lifts you up into a magical experience where trees hug you and you feel so completely loved and even celebrated.  Celebrated for just being you...the wonderful being you are.  I feel like I surrender to this cascade of pleasure and fall into a soft place of roses and happy clouds above me.  

Since I do psychic readings for people everyday, I do believe there is a connection between the sixth sense and ASMR. I believe everyone is psychic they just talk themselves out of really listening to it sometimes. On a side note: (pick a good question) angelbellsguidance.aweb.page

Anyway, one day when I was really blue and in the dumps, I listened to nothing but ASMR over and over again.  There is a threshold.  I think at some point I decided the sensation was fading.  It never completely went away.  I just realized that for me ASMR is best enjoyed in half hour doses.  It feels like a rich chocolate dessert and a foot massage at the end of my day.  Like Christmas, it would lose some of its impact if we celebrated it weekly.  Like a non drug tranquilizer it helps remove stress and other worries and readies me for sleep.

The gift of self-soothing and peace of mind

As a social worker most of my life, Self-Care becomes essential. You cannot care for others if you are not being nourished spiritually. I started keeping a book of my little pleasures, no matter how small, so that when I need to treat myself it can be as simple as going over my list to find a little mini vacation for me.  I will share some of my list in the hope that it would spark others to do the same.  Sewing, craft making, blogging, fixing a delicious treat that is low carbs and yet very tasty, reading a chapter out of an inspirational book, or a good mystery, and snuggling with my furry angels (cats). Bike rides down beautiful areas of the valley, Climbing in a hot tub with friends. Visiting a natural hot spring and then sun bathing. I used to sun bath nude when younger. That is a nice experience too. Day trips to the Grand Canyon or Sedona are rejuvenating for my soul. I love comedies and renting a funny movie is just the ticket sometimes.  

It really does not take a great deal of money to have those special moments.  The best deal in town is the YouTube community that does a great job of healing the restless places and gifting us with such pleasure and healing for free.

Why do so many of us experience ASMR (but not everyone)?

 I believe that ASMR is experienced by those who are more sensitive and in touch with their bodies and souls. As a kid I was very sensitive to all tactile sensory feelings. I could not stand itchy, scratchy, and too tight clothing or shoes.  When quite small my mother would dress me in cute ruffle dresses that I would tug at and remove. She was not happy about that. I could see colors around people and feel their discomfort as well.  I loved animals preferring them to humans sometimes. Some people had colors that were so ugly and voices that grated on my nerves. Then there are those I found beautiful inside and out! My Mom would often beret my judgements of beauty saying (she has a lantern jaw or she does not have any fashion sense) I could hear what people were going to say several seconds before they said it.  I was ultra sensitive.  My children and I are/were very psychic/intuitive/empathetic. and this is not a bizarre human characteristic. I believe we, the humans, are gifted with the knowing/sensing of subtle energies and the ability to navigate relationships with them. Emotions help us navigate well in our interpersonal relationships. I have heard that ET's are envious of the enormous pallet of human emotions we generate and even create between each others. Humans have the BIG box of crayons from which to express themselves. Emotions are very essential to happiness. Tribes that are friendly and live in harmony do not experience, crime, domestic violence, substance abuse, teen suicide and etc. I believe our authentic human heart desires this type of intimacy. At one time life was less stressful and we were able to listen to our bodies. We could dance and sing and nap without interference, If you watch your pets and children they are masters at this. 

Just added this to illuminate the talk we are having. 

I just finished an amazing true story of a little girl raised by monkeys.  Marina Chapman was abducted from her Columbian Village by two men.  For some reason they abandoned her in the rain forest far from her home.  They had used a sedative by covering her mouth and nose with a cloth soaked in chloroform. When she woke up she was surrounded by a troop of monkeys.  They coaxed her to eat fruit and finally adopted her and they spent a good part of their day foraging for food but towards the end of the day they all groomed each other.  Grooming was a communal act of bonding and adult females groomed each other as well as siblings and couples.  I think this might be an ancient type of activity for us humans as well.  As they groomed Marina she felt comforted and calm. She mentions feeling tingles sometimes as well.  It seems we have abandoned this in favor of individualism, but, this type of grooming still happens at times. As a child I spent a great deal of time in the branches of a plum tree and I love running water as well.  I am sure that these things trigger a wonderful calmness in me.  Added on 10/25/15 (there is a font change) link below. 
http://www.amazon.com/The-Girl-With-Name-Incredible/dp/1605985457

Somehow our environment has become more individualistic, mechanized, and overly structured these days.  I believe this flies in the face of balance and mental health.  This way of harried living is wonderful for the pharmaceutical companies.  I think it benefits the drug dealers as well.  I also believe that humans are naturally peace loving beings. There will be disagreements and skirmishes, but. organized, distant and depersonalized warfare is the antithesis of our true nature.  Many veterans, including my father, remain damaged for life; emotionally.  There are those who would disagree with this last statement but truly I feel we are trained into being certain types of people and those obligations are not in our best interest.  The meek will inherit the earth because in the absence of violence we become more powerful creators.  Collectively we need to vote in this direction. Perhaps we need to reclaim who we are as humans from those who would desire us to be robot like.

What is that wonderful Response?

Some of us feel it is a phenomena of allowing the Universe, All That Is, to Flow through us. Religion is a man made construct. I am speaking of that connection to "God". God is a loaded word with many concepts emerging. I like to avoid that word which can bring up images of a deity who is judgmental and vengeful. I speak and blog about my near death experience where I was surrounded in white light and God spoke to me. I realized that I had been choked off from this benevolent, all loving, unconditional, being. In fact many religions teach things that are not true to the nature of the God I experienced.  There is a primal relationship.  I mean that I was greeted with the presence of a being that I had always known and was now estranged from on earth.  It was an ancient knowing within me that I was the offspring of this being.  We have forgotten who we are and where we came from. Being born human there is a veil over our mind.  We live life as amnesia patients. When I was re-emerged with this God Presence, I felt complete and joyful and I had all my answers.  There was no aching inside me to be loved, I was drenched in sublime affection.  I now think that our human relationships are a reminder of this and mimic this all encompassing love.  We crave connection.  ASMR is triggered in a certain part of our brain in response to extreme relaxation which in turn turns on some type of human "purring" just like cats and other animals.  It is a natural drug and maybe a type of brain hormone or chemistry like dopamine.  It is healing us. If Stress is a silent killer, then this would be natures antidote.

 Meditation can do this as well. I feel much better after quieting my mind and experiencing a higher self or energy. Not everyone can empty their head and go to that place. I think guided meditation and ASMR are the next best alternatives. They slow us down, distract us, comfort us create a pleasant state of mind and some sounds just resonate with our personal well being. It is somewhat mysterious and I think more and more we will discover the answers.

Those are some extra observations. Just relax, let go and allow. That helps the experience to happen.

Some of the gorgeous ASMR Angels…

Ilsa aka Ilsa the Water Whispers

Masha aka Maria Gentle Whispering

Violet aka Veni Vidi Vulpes

Ally aka ASMR Requests

                                             

Cosmic Tingles

Heather Feather

Anastasia of Atmosphere

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I will offer a link to some of my all time favorite ASMR sessions. 

Cosmic Tingles

Heather Feather

Gentle Whispering

Veni Vidi Vulpse

The Water Whisper

The Woopi Goldberg, Oda Mae Effect

Remember the movie Ghost (1990) with Whoopi playing a psychic named Oda Mae? How can we forget. She is a charlatan psychic.  I met several of those types of psychics in Sedona.   I call it burn out.  They have been psychic at one time, started charging money, got used to that and lost the real connection.  I am not sure how that happens exactly.  When drinking coffee with some top psychics they will tell me things I am sure they don’t say to very many.  They don’t want to be psychics any more.  They want to do work shops, sell books,  sell cards but they don’t really want to service people in readings anymore.

Perhaps they were intrigued at one time with the gift and with helping people.  That all flew by the wayside.   Social workers ( I have worn that tee shirt) go through burn out so bad...like no other profession.  Police, Nurses, Doctors, Psychologist and (Psychics), all experience burn out.  I watch it happen like a bad movie.  

Bad Movie: Susan Sunshine Social Worker

Young fresh 22 year old hops off the bus with a small suitcase.  She is a Pollyanna type with a big grin. She just graduated from college and she is filled with passion and inspiration.  She is going to help people and make a difference in this world.  It takes about a year of bumping into some not so nice realities before she loses that glow. There are so many reasons...I can think of 199 right now.  People can be lazy, they can get stuck, agencies are not funded correctly.  People at the top, the CEO’s who sit in plush offices take their salary off the top of the funding, perhaps your tax dollars and donations,  the social workers are busting their butts and making nothing, and the money to help the people dries up all too fast.  People are resistant to change, some of the techniques and classes are totally ineffective, people have to want to change. Sometimes you cannot throw enough money at a family to make it any different.  Find free housing, food stamps, health care, find them a job, etc,  and they wind up back on the streets.  They come back wanting more help.  Paper work is nightmare.  The agencies really want so much paperwork and yet special people helpers rarely get paid for it.  Our 22 year old Pollyanna get disillusioned.  She is tired and overworked.  She has no social life and she can barely pay her bills.  It happens just like that. There are of course exceptions and when people do turn their lives around...wow...the sun comes out and the birds sing.   The expectations people have of psychics can be so unrealistic.  There is a similar story for us.

The End…

Well if you remember the story in Ghost (movie 1990),  Patrick Swayze is murdered and he comes back to help protect his wife, Demi Moore, who is in danger.  He can’t reach Demi,  she is not able to hear him. This is very accurate.  Grief can block any real clear communication.  You can sense the loved one, and dream about them and yet the water is muddy on accurate messages.  Patrick contacts Oda Mae who does hear him.  All of a sudden she is a real psychic and what’s worse is she can’t get rid of Patrick.  Yes, that does really happen.  There are ghosts that will not leave me alone until I get a message to their loved one.  

I will get to the point I am really trying to make.  God, Source, Your Higher Self and Your Guides are all connected in your vortex of your being.  Neale Donald Walsch says, God is always trying to connect with you.  The next song on the radio might be a love song from Source and it is just for you.  

Even if a psychic is not sufficiently in tune with her center and her receptivity, the message you need can come through.  That message will come through with such grandeur and clarity no matter what.  It is you the client that will allow the message and it is you the client who will block the message.  

Two Questions Are Forming Here

One:  Why are psychics not always in tune?  

They are like anyone, they can be overly tired,  they can be stressed by life events happening to them, and they might just need a break from the intensity of being a psychic.  They might need to recharge their battery.  Channeling takes a certain type of life force and power.  It is easy to become drained.  If someone is greedy they might be doing too many readings a day...like some people do in Sedona.  It is OK for a short while but then they hit the floor.  It take a while to recoup.  And often times they lose the desire to help people in this way...because it is like offering someone a gold nugget that took lots of energy to create, and it is not appreciated at all.  I think Jesus called that casting your pearls before swine.?  It can feel that way.  There is really no monetary amount for this exchange.  The money charged is only a token amount and you are paying them for their time.  You are also, paying for all the fakes out there.  I mean really, if people don’t value a true channeled message,  it might be because of bad psychics in the past.

Because it does happen to all of us who do this work.  I offer to re-do a reading two weeks in the future...if someone is unhappy. I think I have a very good record, but sometimes it just isn't going as well as I would like   Why wait two weeks?  Well, that gets to the next Question:  

Two:  People can energetically block messages

There are many ways the client can block and disallow the best possible reading, the clarity and the answers they need.  This has always baffled me.  When the student is ready the teacher is there.  When a client is ready to see the solution that solution will show up.  I observe this many times.  My guides have to go around the back side of the barn to enter the client's subjective reality.  It is seldom going to come at them in a direct way.  We don’t really always want the truth.  We don’t always want to see where we might be a part of the problem or worse, maybe all of the problem.  There are barriers.  My guides do their best to work around these issues.  Me too.  That is why it is good to put a problem aside and revisit it later, perhaps the Universe has opened the window just a bit and you can see and hear the answers.  

Don't get freaked out by disappointment. All of us have a wee bit of impatience.  We want it now...like a hungry child looking at a chocolate cookie…!   Hard to believe we can get in our own way.  Below is a great Abe/Hicks video.

When you are open,  The Universe will put an Oda Mae (the real psychic version) in your path that demonstrates all that you need to know and are seeking.  Relax...stay happy...it does happen!

Abe/Hicks  on overcoming disappointment

http://youtu.be/LcciF4RwpvQ

Otter Appreciate Abe's Teachings

Appreciating Abraham’s Teachings

I tried to find a picture of what Abraham might look like and that looked like an otter with gratitude. Wow.

There are moments when some of the teachings don’t seem to work…

But then they do.  Most people do have some resistance to what they really want.

People can seem to fear what they want...but that is because they are realizing the absence

of what they want.  I really want the job, this lover, this house but its scary and what if it doesn’t happen?   

This is not always about getting what you want or think you want, it is about loving and appreciating.  Always...pretty much

The best process might be meditating and entering source energy.  Leave out all worry and lack.

When you are they in the presence of such love,  take a picture of it.   You might not always be

in that place but it gets easier to return on a daily basis.  It is a feeling.  Most people do not navigate their day based on feelings. It would be very good to learn to do that.  Even if you experience feelings you don’t enjoy, they are your guidance system.  

As Abe explains it, we exist within energy, all is energy.  When your emotional weather is changing, it is telling you that trouble might be ahead.  Trouble in the way of unwanted experiences.  You at a higher superconscious level know what direction to go...it is telling you that your human logic is failing you when you think things and believe things that are not vibrationally true for you.

Becoming emotionally aware is the real effort factor.  Abe says don’t take action and don’t effort outside your personal vortex.  That is so hard for people.  They go to a gym everyday and “effort” thinking no pain no gain.  They are running in circles sometimes.  Your body knows exactly what it needs and how to achieve health.  It will tell you if you quietly listen.  

Bashar says follow your highest excitement.  For Stephen Hawking that looks like new realizations regarding science and physics.  For another person it might be taking their dog to the park...and really enjoying it.  It is also a challenge to live that way.  There are so many things on my to do list that maybe I really am not excited about.  I try and rearrange them and I even ask the Universe to help me find a fun and interesting way to accomplish these many things that appear to need doing.  

Let’s say I need to do the dishes and the laundry.  Nothing major will happen if I don’t (do it) but there are consequences.  I meet clients in my home. I won’t have clean clothes to wear and I will be embarrassed by the messy kitchen.   Also, I just prefer a clean environment.  

I asked for help one day….Zac just started cleaning at a breakneck speed telling me that he was just in the mood to mop the floor and fold my clothes and then vacuumed. Wild horses could not have stopped him.  Interesting.  I did not even ask him...Just the Cleaning Fairies.  Have you ever had one of those cleaning frenzies...sure, me too.  

That is my epiphany, don’t let chores take you down, don’t let anything take you down.  It is not so vital to manifesting as it is to living a happy life.  Stay happy!

Abraham Hicks in Phoenix, February 1st

copied from my monthly news letter....sorry for the format. February 1st I attended the Law Of Attraction Seminar with Abraham. The workshop was very good. There were many subjects discussed as usual.  The points that I remember most:  We do not need to age and become ill to exit earth. It is possible to gently lay your body down and transition. I want to have fun and joy up to the moment I leave.   Another lady asked about her purpose in life. This is my paraphrased answer. We create purpose moment by moment. Each step we take is helping us express our highest purpose.We evolve into greater understanding and the next awesome version of ourselves.  We came into this life to experience joy and love. We came from joy and love, and in birth we are pinched off from our eternal self. The challenge is to re-connect in our physical world. Our purpose can be as big or little as we choose.  Some people feel they need to leave their mark or legacy behind. And they can really obsess about that too. That isn't the whole story.  Your job is to align with ¨God, Source, All That Is, Higher Self¨ and live each day from that amplified connection.  Then every one you meet and everything you do is inspired and full of purpose.  People think their purpose is to be a writer, a teacher, a rock star, a math teacher or ________(fill in the blank).  Most hold the belief that success is measured certain ways and we should achieve something significant.  That might be true in many ways.  We all have to earn a living and hopefully it is a career that you have a passion for.  I don't think St. Francis knew what he would become later in life, it just evolved as he followed his heart. For many ultra creative souls, they just follow their excitement and it carries them to greater heights. This is a controversy for some people who are very goal driven.  I am goal driven. I have two classes left before internship this summer.  I can't get too airy...fairy.  Well, yeah, I am airy fairy!  Never mind...I reserve the right to be dialectic in my golden years.   I was disappointed I did not get called on to ask my question. I did raise my hand as did so many others. My question was about Angels. I had a website called Angel Station for many years. I feel the presence of Angels and have no doubt about their existence. My life has been saved many times by my guardians. After the workshop, I met a man named Otis. He asked me if I was a ¨Medium¨ .  I said, Why yes I am. He handed me a feather.  He explained that his guides manifested the feather and told him it was for me. Wow...A day full of surprises and paranormal happenings!  It really was co creating at its best.

Understanding St Francis Better

Unscrambling The Message of St Francis

Everyone puts a spin on things.  Our media is good at doing that. Some advertisements exaggerate the benefit of their product.  My favorite commercials are the ones sponsored by the pharmaceutical companies. Just taking a pill makes you fall in love and skip through Paris. The disclaimer at the end tells you of all the dangerous side effects.  Is it hard to believe that the Catholic Church has been putting a spin on certain saints?  Jesus had to be heroic enough in the eyes of a Roman Culture to put him on pedestal and worship him instead of the other gods in their culture.  There are many good qualities these human saints had without the spin.  Mary did not wear the perfect color of lipstick.  But if she did wear a certain brand and color, I want stock in that company!  There is always financial and political gain in whom the church decides to saint.  Always.  

I have been told by many psychics that I was St. Francis in a past life.  I have been screaming  ¨NO NO NO ever since hearing that.  My personality is so very different.  I have written about this before.  I do not want to be ST. FRANCIS.  Let me be so very clear about this, I am the girl that used to fart when she laughed (accidentally).  My ability to be the class clown is much more in line with who I am.   If someone said that I was Calamity Jane in a past life, cool, that I could believe except for Indian rampages. I am part Cherokee.  There is one hitch,  I came into this world with profound spiritual memory.  I came in already knowing my powerful connection with God.  I have soul memories of being ST FRANCIS that started when I was about 10 years old.  Escaping it is not possible. But let me be very clear like Patton (general of world war II),  He said, this is my destiny, to be here at this time and place.  It is my destiny to unscramble the message of Francis.  I am going to refer to him as Francis.  I really want to leave the saint off of it.  I am uniquely qualified to de-saint him.

What he got wrong!

There is quite a list of fuzzy thinking with Francis.  He was inspired and had a strong charismatic personality, thumbs up.  He was guilty of extreme black and white thinking.  There was a class distinction. Francis was born to a wealthy family and they had political power.  Think of the story of Romeo and Juliet.  Italy had its ruling families.  Francis was of course Catholic and was educated that way within that doctrine.  He was a radical hippie for that day and age.  Nancy was a flower child as well.  He did not like to see human suffering.  That gets a thumbs up!  He decided to join the misery.  That gets a thumbs down.  I am in training to be a therapist. Can you imagine being so empathetic that you sit  and cry and ruminate with your client for the whole session like in the movie ¨Harvey¨ saying ¨poor dear, poor dear?¨   NO, you cannot get sick enough to make the sick well, and you cannot get poor enough to make the poor richer.  That is crazy circular thinking.   Francis walked barefoot, feet bleeding, shivering in the cold, often fasting and hungry.  Shoes were a status symbol.  Most poor did not have them.  Francis was making a statement with every defiant act.   He was following the life of Jesus.  He followed so well that he created the stigmata for himself.  He never recovered from that experience. Francis died about age 45 with several infections going on.  I believe he lasted as long as he did due to the robustness of his early life as a soldier and world traveler.  I will say that he got quite a bit right.  I will talk about that next (briefly)...he is already sainted.  The lesson of significance here is that a person does not need to embrace poverty and suffering to be ¨holy¨ and spiritual.  That is why I get nauseated when remembering his life time.  When Francis was dying he said ¨I have been too hard on brother ass¨.  He was referring to his near masochistic treatment of his physical self.  I must tell you,  Yes, he was way too hard on himself and God does not require that at all.  Let us not start on the misconceptions about God...and the various religions.  I can't go there right now.  

What he Got Right

There is such strong evidence that Francis could really talk to the animals and listen.  Nancy was born with that too.  I had all the animals follow me home, and my brother sometimes threw rocks chasing them away.  I remember sitting on the branch of our orange tree singing to the bees who were merrily sipping nectar from the white blossoms (age 4).  Bees were buzzing past my nose and yet I did not endure one sting.   To this day my respect for all life is as profound as it was with the life of Francis.  I am not the only one...there are so many people who share this communion with nature and animals.  This is only my strongest resemblance to Francis. Do I know how to heal animals?  Yes I have done it so many times.  I talk to trees and they answer back.  This ability came prior to Francis' life.  I have been a priestess and shaman many times...this is an acquired skill.  Maybe we are born with it?  Yes, but it is acquired because I broke through the 3D barrier with it.  I carried it in like one smuggles dope across the border.  I carried it within my DNA.  

Francis made it clear that power and clarity of mind do not belong to a certain privileged class of people.  There are some things that money can and cannot do.  There are those credit card purchases and for everything else there is  POWER OF SPIRIT.  There are so many who have all that money can buy and yet they are not happy.  Frances had an abundance of spiritual wealth, compassion, and true concern for the well being of others.  He made his mark in history and it is a big mark. I am proud of him.  In reading about him, I realized what an organizer he was.  He was more like Paul than Jesus that way.  Francis successfully organized several religious groups that thrive to this day in one form of charity or another.  There is nothing more powerful than LOVE.  He lived it and showed it.  That continues in this life and colors my being with rosiness.