Neale Walsch & My Tears & Teirs of Angels

My Angel Experiences

These are some of my Angelic encounters.  I try and leave out religious interpretation. I see that too often and Angels appear to people of all walks and faiths.

Bashar says “Don’t Be a Belief Thief”.  I think that is excellent advice.  I have listened to so many people discuss Angels and I think there are no experts with all the right answers for me.  I prefer to read about eye witness experiences that offer no religious or filtered interpretation.  The Bible is the most prevalent source of Angel stories.   I have had several Angelic encounters and dreams.  I am so happy that I can share them. 

I agree with all the people who say, “Ask for Angelic help”.  They are there for us.  I think we ask in many ways and sometimes without knowing that we are asking.  This leads to a powerful experience of protection.

 Someone I knew and cared about was about to attack me.  As this person ran towards me to “smack” me, it was like a gale wind blew him into a wall. He hit his head and almost passed out.  I felt both compassion and relief at the same time.  I could feel the tremendous energy in the room and I have felt that energy before in my life.  I call it the Michael energy.  I now believe that Angels are a collective and not assigned a hierarchy. That is another realization that I have come to.  I also feel my state of mind made a difference too.  I think if I had not been in a peaceful, loving frame of mind, that event could have taken a different turn.  For instance if I had been angry and argumentative, my own energy might have allowed some sort of physical attack. There is a plug in this story to remain true to the Source of Love that we all belong to.  This is only my personal belief and I encourage people to meditate and turn to their inner Guru for their own answers.  But as sure as I breathe it really happened.  I can count many times where I feel I was spared a very unpleasant experience or two.

 

One day I was driving behind a huge gas truck.  I was in my own world and thoughts.  Out of the corner of my eye I saw a huge Warrior Angel hanging on the back of this truck.  He might have been 12 feet high and he was intently watching everything on the road.  He wore a white Roman like toga with a gold rope belt.  There was something around his head like a band. His hair was page boy length and of a ginger color.  I have no interpretation for this experience.  I feel that to haul gasoline for a living a driver needs all the help he can get.  An explosion in major traffic could harm many people.

In 2001, I had a sad experience.  I was asleep on my living room couch and the sun was up.  It must have been about 8 am.  I was awakening but still in bed when my room filled with Angels.  These Angels did not have wings but I noticed they were floating above the floor about 4 feet. They came in a group of about 7.  They were all female as noticed by their wardrobe.  They were ethereal in flowing pastel gowns. There was no ceiling as the room had a golden glow that transformed the third dimensional limitations.  The hair colors varied as did the gowns.   One very pretty brunette acted as the spokesperson and took a step (move) towards me.  Solemnly she said “go home Nancy”   I sat up in bed as this faded away and thought “I am home”.  Then I pondered the message some more as to what “home” was.  I did not have to ponder for long.  The phone rang, and my Mother was on the line crying.  She reported that my younger brother, Bruce, was found dead in his apartment. She was so distraught and kept saying “my baby is gone”.  I tried to comfort her.  It was a short call and she hung up as she had other calls to make.  Within a half an hour Mom called back and began crying again.  During this call, I said, “Mom, I am going to get in my car and drive to your house.  I will be “home” in about two hours.” Then it hit me, the message was telling me to go to Mom’s house.  In this experience the Angels were there as special messengers.  Their presence gave me the strength to help my Mother, who was falling apart, and to know my brother, Bruce was in good hands and good company.  Indeed!

My  Alaskan Cruise with Neale Donald Walsh was a profound and memorable one.  I was fortunate enough to be on the God Cruise in 2008. This was a real game changer in my life.  But I need to share a little back ground leading up to this cruise.  

 After losing my Brother, my Mother, and My eldest son Jason, I felt utterly defeated. I experienced a rash of "deaths" or transitions within my family.  I was seeing a grief counselor, a 70 year old nun named Teresa.  What a remarkable woman.  She asked me if I felt the presence of my loved ones.   I did quite frequently feel that they were in the room with us. After leaving my counseling session, I felt like stopping at a used book store.   As I walked through the aisles, I noticed a book fall off the shelf.   It was Neale Donald Walsh’s book “Conversations with God”.  There are three volumes and it was volume two.  I looked and they also had volume three.  I purchased them feeling very inspired to do so.  An odd coincidence happened later, a friend handed me volume one.  I was completely sure now, I just had to read them.  Long story short, I think Neale saved my life.  With some inheritance money I purchased a week long workshop and dream vacation at the same time.  I was able to meet a spiritual icon in person, Neale.

This was an Alaskan Cruise and I blog more about it here: http://angelbell444.blogspot.com/2015/05/heaven-and-god-on-this-alaskan-cruise.html

Back to the last day of this cruise.  Neale played some beautiful music as he invited all of us, about 44 people, to go deep within and have our own conversation with God.  The whole week had lead up to this moment.  As I was going into another realm, I looked up and saw tiers of angels singing above our auditorium.  It was a concert of Angels lifting us all up.  Neale had suggested we write down a question for God to answer.  I don’t even remember what my question was, I only remember the ANSWER.

 The flood gates if my heart broke followed by a fountain of tears.  Neale walked over to me with a microphone and asked me, “Nancy, I want you to share what you are feeling”.  I was trying to tell him and everyone what I saw and felt.  I was showered with love and acceptance. I heard the words, “don’t you realize how loved you are?”  I remember trying to explain the connection and put it into words, but, I just blubbered into the microphone with few real words.   Neale said to everyone there " This is how I felt when I wrote my books. I would become overwhelmed with emotion and tears"  I was glad to hear Neale say that actually.  Sometimes Neale can be cerebral in his discourse.  I would call it intellectual and detached.  I understand that makes me a better counselor and it makes him a better speaker.  As I so aptly demonstrated, it is hard to communicate when crying and being swept away. 
 

I have to mention another vision I had regarding to Neale and his mission.   I saw Neale dressed like a pope.  In fact with his longer white hair and beard, he looks almost the same except the beard was ever longer as the pope.  He wore a white mitre on his head and white robes.  I knew that Neale had been a formidable religious figure in a past life after this downloaded scene appeared.  I also was made aware that, he had power in that life but lacked some true insight.  This time he is flooded with insight and had to raise "his church" up once more from the ground level.  Literally from the streets, as St. Francis had done. 

Neale Donald Walsch                                                                                                                                    Pope Julius...(maybe a past life of Neale)

 I don’t have the manual that answers all the Angel questions.  I think the answers emerge only if others share their stories and then we have a mosaic emerging.  Take away the filter of what has been said, and what religions say, and you will see a more Universal Truth emerge. 

These are my offerings to you this day. January 31, 2015

Whoa: Are You Sure There is No Karma, Abraham?

Places where I am conflicted with the Abraham Teachings.

I consider myself to be an Abrahamster.  I appreciate the channeling of the collective called Abraham via channel Ester Hicks.  I went to her conference in Phoenix on February 1, 2014.  It was great to see her in person but I did not get to ask a question in the hot seat.  My question was about Angels.  A man named Otto handed me a feather after the conference.  He asked if I was a medium, and I said “YES”.  Since I did not know him, I was thinking, OMG.  That was a confirmation of the question I had hoped to ask.

So, I remain a fan.  I am far better off after listening to Abraham for the last 5 years. It has broadened my horizon and I just feel happier these days.  So what is my gripe?  Abraham would say, “What is stuck in my vibrational craw”.  Two areas are conflicted to this day for me personally.  These beliefs seem to be juxtaposed in my center.  I feel that a better explanation needs to be offered to us earthlings who are in this world of physicality. 

Belief One:  Karma and the Akashic Records.

I think they are meaning ideas about Karma that do not benefit us.  Edgar Cayce mentioned some fears and health problems resulting from past life issues.  Two stories come to mind.  The first one was a woman born with a deformed hip.  She had been to many doctors and had multiple surgeries.  During her Cayce reading he said there was a spiritual and Karmic energy attached to this hip issue.  When she was sitting in a Roman Coliseum watching Christians being fed to lions, she laughed when one young lady's butt was bitten and torn by a lion.  Not only was it a sign of little compassion or empathy, the bigger issue was not allowing others to have their beliefs.  Even if someone has different beliefs than our own, we must allow and respect that.  We are all growing in conscious awareness at are own pace and in our own way.

Another Edgar Cayce reading involves a man who was born a dwarf.  He also had health issues.  He elected to be born to this body for his growth.  Cayce said that Hitler had asked him to destroy the wheat fields and orchards prior to the arrival of the allies in Germany.  He did this as asked but it must have triggered a huge spiritual rift later.
 

I myself do past life reading.  I am able to view Akashic records.  It does seem that we carry some soul memory via our energetic body into this life time.  There is some thread of connection. 

Each time Ester is asked about Karma it seems it upsets her and she says it is a flawed concept.  Perhaps some of the idea of retribution is faulty, but the soul memory and energy of key events I feel do cross into our present mind and body experience. 

I am hearing Abraham say,” yes, but you are not limited in this way. “ Take the value in an experience and go on…go on to create joy and love.  I just got some of this.  It is a complicated thing to explain and that is probably why she “dislikes” this subject.   

The other two issues for me are childhood abuse and personal boundaries.  Those are large topics as well.  I don’t feel moved to go through both of those today.  I have not yet heard a satisfactory explanation of children creating abuse in their lives yet.  Few of us are born in to TV perfect homes and families.  I suppose even as children, we can attract events or protect our environment.  I am not completely resolved on Angels, Abuse, Boundaries and Karma…all complex. 

The paradigm has not shifted but little by little I can see that none of these things need hold us back.

So more later, more realization is coming.  

Jump on the Love Train!

If you miss the train I'm on, you will know that I am gone.  You can hear the whistle blow 500 miles.  But, it is not too late.  It circles back around and you can get on board the love train right now.  

So we know it is important to love your enemies and there are powerful reasons for that.  They are not really your enemies.  We are all connected in some way as eternal beings.  The O’Jays sing a song called the Love Train.  I believe it is preferable to stay on that train and not get on the hate train.  The light beings are on that happy train.  The ones on the hate train are very limited.  I would say they are very disconnected from their true nature.

 I was listening to the Annie Jacobsen’s discussion of Operation Paperclip.  Some of the most brilliant scientist were brought to the USA after World War 2.  There was one huge problem; they were Nazi war criminals.  As I listen to what they did before coming here, I was thinking how can someone be so brilliant and lose their humanity along the way?  Where did their empathy for other human beings go?  I suppose they want to live in the dark world they are creating.  A world full of human suffering.  We have free will to make these kind of choices.  I am not wanting to join them in that world.  They will realize they are connected to their victims.  It might take a while to see that.   There is a common thread that connects us all.  Oneness is not sameness.  We have our own perspectives.  We all travel from being disconnected toward the sun.  From the mud to full bloom gorgeous. 

The Growing Collective: Muck to Beauty

They say a lotus grows in pond scum and becomes one of the most beautiful flowers.  When I think of iconic people like St. Francis, and his personal growth, it really hits me.  As someone becomes more expansive and tuned into the God relationship, they become a collective.  David Wilcock, (Cayce past life), mentioned that as Edgar Cayce expanded he drew in the group soul.  That means that St. Francis and Edgar Cayce left the box of singularity behind.  They outgrew the shell of personality and become a collective of like-minded beings.

There might be thousands of individuals who become Cayce and St. Francis.  They were at one time small and in the muck of limited insight, and progressed to a blended sort of being.  So if someone was living as Queen Elizabeth 1, she was at her life’s climax a concert of souls.  The golden age of the bards was a collective.  It was many souls incarnating at the same time to bring the plays of Shakespeare to life.

This is helping me to realize that many of us now incarnated again, may have shared a life time as group souls. We were able to ride the leading edge and take it further than one consciousness could have done. 

I have said I knew St. Francis very well (past life, but seems like just yesterday).  He came into this world already knowing many spiritual basics.  He had to make some tough choices.  He had to leave his family or origin and venture out on his own.  He had to decide to heal himself from illness and not leave this world. He had to quit being a “play boy”. When young he knew how to party.  He had to trust in his own ability to develop a new paradigm and lead a new movement.  The guy was a mover and a shaker.  His organizational skills trump many now day CEO’s and it was the dark ages before the internet.  Many of these traits he came in with, he was born into wealth and privilege so he acquired some abilities as he grew up, and in the end, he invited all the “heavy hitters” to play with him.  It never was a solo journey. 

As he made the better of two choices he became more empowered by the collective.  New energy moved through him.  It became easy for him to just ask and things would happen.  That was because he did not act from a singular personality level.  He became a group consciousness.  Many benevolent beings jumped on board the St Francis mission and life.  He became the giant oak that could support all thousands of singing birds.  Birds that all praised the Infinite.

 

These are my realizations for today.  Thank you David Wilcock and Wynn Free for nudging me in this direction.  It brings great peace to my heart.

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500 miles

Love Train

Guided Meditation for Children. Part Two

We will continue our journey from part one

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As we come out of the blue tunnel of light there is a green city in the distance,  It looks very magical and it beacons us on.

I have been there before and I am so happy to take you to one of my favorite places.  

We are here and the green gate opens for us. Every one is there to smile and greet us. These people in green are the friendliest folks I have ever met. They line up on the side of the green road and wave and smile at us.  They just love visitors. They love the green light in your heart and it makes them so happy.  Each heart light is just a little bit different like the pictures we paint, fingerprints,smiles,and snowflakes. 

There is a green parrot who speaks to us. He introduces himself us Jacob. He sings us a song and I think it is a Bob Marley song called "Three Little Birds". Jacob sits on your shoulder and sings it to you. That is his job. Jacob greets visitors and tells them that everything is going to be alright. 

Jacob tells us to come back soon and visit again.  We must go on now to the next experience on this ride.

We are floating through a lavender field. Excuse me, I must nibble on this flower. I am a lady bug who cannot resist flowers this fragrant.  Did you ever smell anything so wonderful in your life?  (find something lavender, like a candle scent) There are so many lavender humming birds here too. All around us we hear the hum and swish of little birds drawing nectar from each little blossom. We must look like flowers too. Little birds are flying by to greet us. Lavender helps me feel calm and peaceful. Do you feel that way too? Wonderful. just take that nice feeling with you as we go to our next place. 

I see it now. This is the purple forest and it is entirely magical. I hear waltz music playing. 

Any time that music is playing it means one thing. The purple roses are dancing. The purple roses seldom like to stay in one place all day.  It is lovely to watch them float around us in dreamy patterns. I love the way they smell and make me feel free. Freedom is playing and dancing like the roses do. I like that too. 

I think that is my favorite music with fairy violins. They are the most talented as well as small and purple. 

Look into my big eyes. See me? It has been a pleasure being your guide today. I will take you back to where we started. To do this I will count to three. OK. 

One: we are starting to come home again.  Relax. You can always come back here again.

Two: Think of all the people you love. You can open your eyes now and find them.

Three: All these nice feelings, scents, and sounds can stay with you as you start to move and go forward with your day. Wiggle your toes. Yawn and Stretch a little. Go have fun. 

2015 Predictions

2015 Predictions

Happy New Year.  Each new year I draw some Tarot Cards and meditate on global predictions. 

USA

Last year I felt that each state in the USA would make some enormous changes at a state level via the Governors.  That happened in the way of demanding labeling of GMO ingredients in foods.  It happened in legalization of medical marijuana. I believe there were other significant state level changes too.  I know that legal marriage between same sex partners continues to gain state by state approval.   I believe that will continue. I predicted in 2014 that Alaska would get a new dynamic governor.  This was a close race against a Republican incumbent.   There is a new dynamic (Independent Party) governor, Bill Walker.  I will call that a home run for me.  http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/11/14/alaska-governor-walker-parnell_n_6162488.html.  More will be happening on a local level this year.  City magistrates and leaders will honor the voice of the people more than at a federal level in many ways. 

2014 I predicted that in Arizona we would elect a male governor that I did not prefer and did not vote for.  That happened.  In many ways it will not be a tragedy.  I don’t see some of the changes I prefer happening in our state, but it appears that he will create some stability and some better communication in our state legislature.  I will have to be content to wait until the next gubernatorial
election. 

I copied this from last years predictions:
This year we will see many females running for President. And I don't think Hillary will be the final choice. But lets leave some fun in the race. I don't want to know. Next year (2016)I might hone in on all the politics regarding our next US president.

I still am not sure who will win the presidency but it will be a rocky road for some.  This time many will leave the political arena for good.  There will be some dark horses running and that only makes it more exciting.  Just when you think it will be the same old thing, the world and the USA will see new faces and brand new exciting discussions.  It will be a great race.  No need to spoil all the fun with a premature prediction.   

I predicted a desalinization plant in or near Rocky Point, Mexico that would be international.  It would greatly help parts of southern Arizona, namely Yuma.  I did find an article that states a study for that and it was published in August 2014.  They are going to break ground and it is underway.  http://rockypoint360.com/tag/desalination-plant/.  I would call that a hit.  I believe this year there is even more on this and new jobs created for Mexico and Arizona.  It will be quite the partnership.  More across the border cooperation in education as well.  I see one of the best colleges being build.  It will rival Stanford and Yale in the scope and quality of curriculum.  The way to ease border conflict and immigration woes will emerge.  It is a more flexible agreement.  The problem was those people in Mexico fleeing poverty and corruption.   I think the drug cabal of the past will be fading in many areas.  With new citizen and immigration measures in place we all win.  Habla Espanol?  Keep practicing.  It is time we in the States learn more than one language.  It is becoming the norm in Arizona.

 

Last year I predicted that people who are frustrated with the status quo would have more problems assembling in a town hall forum.  I was looking at all the world wide protest that happened over this last year… And the police state level resistance to them.  I predicted that churches would step up and become more of a political voice and a place where people can discuss the issues at stake.  It is a trend that will continue.  The Catholic Pope seems to be helping in this regard as well as Protestant Dominations.  Zachary and I went to a Christmas Eve Candlelight service at a very progressive church and we intend to return.  I don’t know how to measure this trend for my accuracy…but personal observation tells me it is happening.  This year, beyond the church taken on some political advocacy, I see smaller groups of people meeting and I would call this master mind groups or groups that envision and put energy around the preferred intentions.  This feels safer and less infiltrated than larger known political groups.  The point is not to be too rattled by all that is happening but continue to support each other in what we are building for the future.  When you know what you don’t want, you will clearly know what you do want.

Huge divisions are happening within the Police and the Military.  Both the police and military will be dividing more than ever.  I told a young black police man in 2012 that he would have to decide which side of the line he is going to stand on.  He looked worried.  I said don’t be concerned because you are one of the good guys.  Eventually the white hats in all this win.  Please continue to respect our law officers and military.  They are aware of all the crazy decisions coming from the top.  You will continue to be surprised at all the happenings around this.  It continues for the next 5 to 10 years. 

I predicted “sensitive windows” last year.  I found some news on this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Smart_glass

This year it will be a year for indoor gardening and edible landscaping.  Hydroponics really take off with more and better ways to do this for apartment dwellers.  All kinds of green technology is on the rise.

Last year 2014 I predicted a huge fear campaign for a super bug or virus.  http://angelbell444.blogspot.com/2014/01/2014-predictions-part-two.html

http://angelbell444.blogspot.com/2014/01/indigo-moon-predictions-for-2014.html

I think I call that a ding ding ding.  The Ebola fear campaign was raging most of this last year.  I still think there will be news of a vaccination for this down the road.  I use a yellow light of caution with almost all vaccinations.  Kids getting new vaccinations in the 60’s were accidentally infected with a cancer causing live virus.  Now how does that happen?  I have looked at all the articles on this.  I believe it was a polio vaccine that infected thousands of school children.  I will dig up that research.  Where there is smoke there is fire. 

As I try to retell all the correct predictions, it takes some focus on what is unique for this year. 

The biggest news will be the many accidental deaths of bankers.  The banking system is about to break up in a huge apocalyptic way.  I predict that there will be a USA form of economy that is only a credit system.  All numbers and transparent accounting.  There will be credit cards and the old fashioned books issues long ago for savings accounts.  Someone will only sign their name for non-credit card dealings.  There must be a third party unlike the usually bartering systems of old.  This will take more than one year to totally transform and change but there is a big wave happening and evidenced this year.   How we exchange goods and services changes and is slowly yet painfully pulled from the Federal Reserve. 

This change will free up new and timely jobs and services.  It will put flow back into a fiat economy that is inflated and stagnate on borrowing and lending.   It creates new types of money for new needed enterprise.  We have been so corralled by the banks.

That is the most exciting thing.  Woo Hoo. 

2015 is a year where many will panic and make some bad choices…around everything.  It is better to stay where you are, relationship, home, career and all, than to jump from the fire into the frying pan. 

There will be new leadership where the law is concerned.  New Lawyers new ways of reaching justice.  The whole system is ready to birth a new egg.  Again this takes time.  We see it begin this year.

I will end with a feeling that if we don’t lose our heads it will be a great year.   It looks like even the Democratic Party will be splitting in many of its core decisions.  It looks like there is a red and black team or two sides this year and facing the elections.  With so much liquid change, some people will feel anxious.  I say go with the flow, relax.  It is taking us to a better place in the end. 

Best Wishes for a year of harmony and small safe changes. 

Nancy

PS.  I just remember saying last year that volcanoes could have benefits or be channeled by drilling wells that allow for power and also maybe to eliminate our toxic non biodegradable waste. I did not see much on this until today.  There is research that says in certain countries this is being seriously looked at.  But did it actually happen in 2014.  I am still looking.

http://news.sciencemag.org/earth/2014/02/could-volcanoes-power-world

Last year I said there would be a new innovative American Car Company.
http://angelbell444.blogspot.com/2014/01/indigo-moon-predictions-for-2014.html

 I just found out I was right on about that.  Accidentally I found a new electric car company called
Green Tech based in Virginia. I did not hear about them until recently.  They are really taking off now.

http://gm-volt.com/2011/09/09/greentech-promises-american-made-electric-cars-this-year/

Psychic Sedona: My Personal Vortex

Psychic Sedona Story

December 13, 2014

Sedona is a character in these pages and it is a vibrant red character.  I remember playing in Oak Creek as a child and losing a little red sneaker.  It was as if a creek nymph grabbed it from my five year old foot and scurried away with it.  Somewhere under layers of creek silt is a little shoe and memories of the best family vacations ever.  Somewhere there is a snapshot in time of skipping in creosol scented air that will never get lost.  I always said I wanted to die in Sedona.  Be careful because wishes sometimes come true.  I almost did die there and had to leave most of my belongings to camp on a friends couch in Phoenix.  I think Sedona makes people come face to face with their shadow side and in my case we (me and my shadow) had a tug of war that I barely overcame.  The tourist come and go, however; there is a tribe there of town people that remain.  There are the backbone of Sedona.  These are the shop owners, restaurant workers, postal service, banker, educators, doctors, and the town’s Psychics.  I was a psychic for over a year in fast lane.  I learned things I never dreamt of from some of the best known psychics.  The one thing I learned about working in a center full of psychics is this:  There is no hiding, anywhere.  When a group of psychics weigh in, like the minority report, no camouflage is going to make a difference.  As I said, there is one thing to do, learn and change.

 Sedona is the fast lane for psychic development and realization.  Someone can live for years going to work every day and barely know their co-workers and neighborhood.  I suppose that is comfortable and preferred by many folks.  I felt like I went through a weekly melt down in colorful Sedona. Weekly my transparency would demand an overhaul at the “Psychic Center”.   Throughout all this transformation, I developed some strong bonds with other psychics.  I won’t call those outside my circle of colleagues’ frauds or charlatans. There are some very talented people outside those I became familiar with.  There are some “psychics” I would not recommend but, I would say all are on a path.  Developmentally each psychic and healer must open up and channel truth to the best of their ability.  The question is this: Do you want to pay good money to someone underdeveloped?  I would say to the fledglings; get into a development group and do hundreds of free readings. In time you will reach the point where you have a talent worth trading or not.  I have many friends who are natural psychics and do not desire to do this for a living.  My son is one of those people.  He is gifted but would not be satisfied working as a professional.  Sedona is the Hollywood mecca for all New Age business.  I felt like a fish out of water coming to a Hollywood, make or break you environment.  I lasted over a year.  It is a transient town with some wanna be’s lasting a few weeks.  I might go back to visit but I would hope to live there or visit there more on my own terms.  I used up my savings in no time and was filling out a form for food stamps when things picked up for me there.  I had a shooting comet moment of glory before the crash.  I am happy to have had that flight across the night sky and the experience.  It was an education one cannot buy anywhere on the planet. 

To be continued…

Next chapter..

The Whirling Vortex House

Should I continue?  God I hope I get some “yes” votes.  I am already pulsing to write more.  I have my own permission slip on this…but…nice to get encouragement.  Nice but not absolutely necessary. 

I am not in Kansas anymore and Whoopi Goldberg here I come. 

Halloween Costume Past Life Fun

Halloween Therapy. Yes Halloween can be somewhat therapeutic in the creative role play of choosing a character to be. It is a chance to step outside the normal box and be wild, crazy, fun, and even scary if you choose. 

As you will notice some people are celebrities, angels, monsters, historical figures, goblins, ghosts, cats, vampires, witches, 

wizards and etc.

As people choose a costume for a party or just to go about the neighborhood, you will be inspired to choose from a plethora of themes. Did you ever wonder if it is a past life memory? It does not have to be but it might be. 

I have noticed when I do past life readings, I find non-human expressions too. I have seen mer-people lives, a life time as a dragon, a life time as a bear, a life time as a reptilian being, dolphin, and Neanderthal or big foot beings. It is amazing

Right now I am offering a past life reading that will spark some remembrance and maybe lead to a costume idea.  Nice to figure out a personality that might lead to more insight later too. 

Just email me at mailto:nancysnimbus@gmail.com and/or select a 2o minute reading for 20 American Busks!

It is all on my website.  

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Pray for Ukraine

The conflict between Russia and the Ukraine has many people confused in the USA. The media might not be as fair and objective regarding the situation there. Today the news reported 23 Ukraine Reuters killed in a gun exchange and their have been some bombs as well. Just like a wild fire or other natural disasters in the recent news. People are choosing to leave their homes. Many Pro Russian citizens in the Ukraine are quitting their jobs and moving to Crimea with their families. A two hour wait for a train ticket was the norm today as families wish to leave the conflicted area of Donetsk. The towns and cities along the Russian/ Ukraine boarder are the most unsafe places to be. Stephen Cohen, an American that lived in Russia for a good many years said position of our US military experts is aggravating the violence. The Kiev's position has been destroy the rebellion in the Ukraine by just killing them on the spot. There is little room for negotiating. Cohen (http://jordanrussiacenter.org/news) maintains that Putin’s position, at least until recently—that the entire Ukrainian government is a “neo-fascist junta”—is incorrect. Many members of the ruling coalition and its parliamentary majority are aspiring European-style democrats or moderate nationalists. The conflict gets little air time on our media, and when it does, it seems that the Ukraine soldiers are the “bad kids”. Russia appears to have started this conflict by moving aggressively into the Ukraine and it does appear that the Ukraine militia is trying to defend its boarders. There is widespread trauma for children and families in boarder cities. Trying to relocate to better areas is now the objective as cities become rubble.

Abraham Hicks: Google Ad Words: Split Enegy vs Clarity

About Split energy?

Today I realize my split energy on several, maybe too many areas, and it is interesting.

I would call myself a strong want-er. Those are Abraham's words. I get ideas all the time. I feel passion about so many possibilities in my life.

I do desire and need more cash flow. Most of us have some split energy around that subject. The subject of money in general can often be loaded with mixed messages.

As an intuitive counselor I help people with clarity. That is the wonderful state of mind where it all comes together and confusion is not in the mix anymore. I help others sort out their split energy. So I am feeling a bit dismal that I have some of that. It feels like the saying: The shoe makers kids are shoeless, and, physician heal thyself. I am able to do this and so it stands to reason I should be able to clear up some things in my own world.

Split energy is inevitable. It does not mean that you are doing anything wrong...but it does indicate that you are sorting and shifting contrast and have some varied beliefs. It is uncomfortable and just like living causes a house to get messy, time must be taken to sort and reorganize. My physical space is messy and my body feels misaligned and I am really going through some manifestation.

Time to get it sorted through.

This all started with the hospitalization of my son and the time I spent at the hospital. I was not doing readings. I was not focused on my livelihood. People would call and I was too distracted to return phone calls and even get back to people. My mind was in a stressed place. My bank account went down and my chores remained undone. I walked into my home and said, it looks like I was on a 3 day drunk. For my personal standards it was really bad.

My brother said, why don't you try ad words by Google. It might send some new people your way. Well, it sounds good but I feel that split energy is the problem. The words for what I do seem fuzzy right now. There are so many things my guides bring through, in spite of my personal state of mind, that I find hard to clarify at this moment.  We, my guides and I seem to zero in on what people have in the personal escrow. That is Abrahamster talk for what are they really wanting to manifest. That is located where in their highest joy zone. They have a dream for themselves. The emotional well being they feel is an indication of how close they are  dovetailing with that dream. If we had no dreams brewing, we might have a sense of detachment from life. I think monks try and do that. Abe says we are here to live life and bang around in it. We are here to experience things and grow from that expansion. We not only are growing personally, we are on the leading edge of creation in general. The Universe benefits from us reaching for new awareness and new ways of being. Sitting in a cave all day and meditating is not usually indicated. In rare cases, a soul will do that. For most of us we desire the co creating that life can offer. 
 

“When the eye beholds a singular vision the soul is full of joy”

I channel what is most needed. My guides seem to prioritize what is truly important and will give my client the most improved state of being. I am in an Ester Hicks like state of showing them who they are. My words are less important than what they feel and see for themselves during a session.

OK...back to defining what I do.

Allow people to realize their clarity and themselves. Improve their Source Connection. Help remove the amnesia of not remembering their true authentic self and demonstrate true connection with those in spirit by seeing post cards of that deceased loved ones life. Heal the gap between the seen and the unseen. Help ease the fear of death, because it is a transition. Help heal grief in showing people that love and relationships continue..albeit in a different way, after the shedding of the physical body.

OK and none of that says that I am a fortune teller...but I do see probable outcomes and probable future events.

My guides will help me. They are saying relax...do something you enjoy and we will bring it to clarity.  I fully trust that they will.  As far as money...it shows up. As far as clients...they just show up when I am ready. I have to be functioning well enough to receive them. I must clean up this space and my head.

That is something a Google ad cannot do. So for now, I might just do some Yoga and listen to music. For those who have a “real” job...sorry to say it. I have to maintain my vibrational integrity. That is my job. It might clear my wobble to have another job too If I can manage it.  I trust that will be revealed.  

This work is harder than it sounds. I am not on my feet all day like the nurses at the hospital. I admire them. I am not doing case management like I used to...but there is an odd parallel. Some readings are a type of social work, counseling, life coaching and motivational speaking rolled into one. It depends on what is needed.

No good hash tags yet, but I have faith, and they will come.

If wanted things don't manifest. You, like me, and like all of us, have split energy on a particular desire. Abe says back out of this and go general.  That means you are trying to hard and being too specific.  Just trust the Universe to show you and be your compass.

Hash tag: I allow harmonized energy around wanted desires and this allows the Universe to bring it into being.

Too long.

Wishing clarity for all of us today.  May it slip in through the crack of least resistance. 

 

Arizona Mental Health's Huge Machine

June 11, 2014

addressed  to Our Arizona Governor... at the AZ State Capitol. 

Dear Janice Brewer,

Regarding the Management of Mental Health in Arizona

Let me introduce myself. I am a counselor in training. I have a year to go prior to taking my test for license and completing the internship requirement. My name is (Angelbell) and I also have had several family members in the mental health system. I face this issue with compassion as well as seeing a need for a sustainable system that really works. I am a fiscal conservative with a heart. I am a professional in the field. Most of all I am a mother with a young adult son hooked up to life support at the hospital after a recent suicide attempt. If there was ever motivation for reaching out and hoping for systemic change... it is now! I will add that against all odds, It looks hopeful that my son is going to recover. We are taking it one day at a time. His father and I are seeking an attorney to possibly help us look into what went terribly wrong.

That is who I am and I am the author of this letter.

I have had a long talk with Izra and Ray Thomas. Ray and I talked months ago as the new RHBA was taking place. The unfortunate thing for us; is that each new RHBA seems to erase the paperwork of the last RHBA. Since our son has been in the system since age 17 there should be reports going back 20 years. Even if those reports were an overview, hitting the highlights, it would be helpful.

This would be helpful in illuminating the life time prevalence of his diagnosis. Recently, my son went before an administrative law judge concerning his social security benefits. Although there are many hospitalizations. It seems that the file was devoid of any significant assessment. During a recent psychotic episode and a subsequent hospitalization, he was court ordered by one judge into treatment and simultaneously another judge decided that he was able to work and mentally stable. That was in April 2014. We have two opposing decisions from Judges who are not mental health professionals but, serve the agenda of different bureaucracies. We are speaking with John McCain's office in an appeal attempt to restore benefits at a time when Z's treatment and ability to continue demands this.

That seems ludicrous to anyone who hears it. It feels like the system has become dichotomous and bi-polar too. The who mental health system seems to be uncoordinated. It seems to be running with many players who are paid well, get good salaries, but it also feels like the families of the patients are doing all the care. I mean all the case management, coordination of services, and just day to day care taking. Unfortunately we don't get a pay check. Others who are detached, are paid. When I say I am a fiscal conservative, I mean we have got a big budget bureaucracy that is not even remotely serving its population or the natural support system of this population, such as family and friends of the seriously mentally ill.

As I have spent 20 years doing my own research beyond my Master's Degree requirements, I look deeply into effective treatment and what works. I was told I might have to pay big money to acquire guardianship for my son. I say why don't we leave out the judges and lawyers and have a team decision. Like the CFT's (Child Family Teams) I used to facilitate, The judge who spends a few moments reading reports and then votes yea or nae, does not know the family or situation as fully as other members of the team. Why are they even necessary? I think the present system is keeping judges and lawyers off the street and gainfully employed, but again, it is not the most compassionate and effective approach. It is not effective as far as best treatment and practice and it is not saving our tax payer dollars very well. We are really spinning our wheels, our time and our dime. And sadly our discarded mental health patients sleep on the streets.

Does not seem to be working well. The prison system, really benefits. I think members of our present legislation have bought stock in that? Rumor has it. Our jails are treating a greater number of the mentally ill. If only that were truly effective. It is certainly not. It is unconscionable.

Most of my frustration is with the crisis treatment centers and the hospitalizations. I was telling Izra Loring one of my stories and he was amazed. He thought it worked much differently. But before I tell that story. The trillion dollar pharmaceutical industry is on the fast tract to getting most of the allocated funding for the mentally ill.

I hate to say it... but those disenfranchised mental health patients are supporting so many well meaning agencies and industries. But...they suffer greatly when there are actually better alternatives than medication many times. Our RHBA's might not be fully exploring those options. I have found much researched evidence that nutrition and vitamin/mineral therapies are out performing medications. Many of the psych medications sedate or try to manage the symptoms. Some are helpful short term. The long term effects are very damaging to the brain and nervous system. And those medications are so expensive. Z's new non title 19 AHCCCS will not even cover the ones that cost several hundreds of dollars a month.

Well no wonder we have such a problem...a large part of the money is serving the psychiatrist or nurse practitioners and the toxic medications that don't cure but might help to some extent. Z's needs them right now due to the worsening of his condition. Alternatives don't seem to be reachable now. I am hopeful that in the future our system will look at more gentle yet powerful and effective alternatives. And the best part is...they are much less expensive.

Again the mental health budget is serving some people, unfortunately not those suffering with mental illness.

My son's case manager, sat with me for hours waiting for Z's turn in the court room. She said sometimes it takes all day...and this is required for court ordered treatment.  He felt his medication was not working for him very well and he stopped them suddenly. That is not the way to come off medication. A slow titration is needed.  I suppose that forcing him to take medication is important right now as long as we have the right ones. And they are helping him. The case manager could not bring her lap top or cell phone into the court room waiting area. I watched as a bus pulled up transporting my son in restraints into the waiting room for patients. This court room necessity is costing a bundle of money and works well for the judges. It is enormously inconvenient for all others in the picture. The case manger sometimes spends all day there several times a week as she works with 40 cases. I asked about a teleprompter, type of court system set up in the out patient clinics and in patient hospitals? That might shave off thousands of dollars and free up the case mangers to really work with the needs of clients.

My son complains that hospital stays are like prison. Very boring and non therapeutic. They were not able to even go outside to hear the birds chirp and sing,  or see trees and blue sky. That would make me more depressed than ever and if someone is already depressed it is not healthy. It is very confining for patients. They are not always treated very well by staff. It is very de-humanizing. And yet, my son needed to be there.  My son and I have talked about what a safe environment, that is kinder, would look like and how that could be achieved. If a poll were taken during the discharge...or afterword's I wonder if more opinions could be gathered.

I wont even start talking about the UPC as I could write a book.  There are no beds at UPC and people sit in chairs for days waiting for placement.  

If there is a steering committee regarding how to help the mental health system work in a better coordinated ...that time is now.

And I would love to be there in any capacity to weigh in on needed change.

A concerned mom.

 

PS some personal info redacted for this post

 

Be Attitudes and Abraham Hicks

From Jesus's Sermon on the Mount as reported via Matthew and Luke

Blessed Are:

The poor for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven

Those who mourn for they will be comforted

The meek for they will inherit the earth

Those who hunger and thirst, they will be filled

The merciful, for they will be shown mercy

The pure of heart: for they will see God

The Peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God

Those who are persecuted for righteousness sake...theirs is the kingdom of heaven

And why is this parable powerful? I think I might be on to something here!

There are so many versions of the be-attitudes and many interpretations as well.

If I see this in light of the Abraham Teachings, it becomes very powerful in the universal law.

Step one is in the asking. If someone is poor physically or spiritually;... they are asking,.. and it will be given. Conversely if someone is very rich, and all their worldly wants are provided, they are not asking and they are not going to get there if they don't ask.

asking has unbelievable power. Think about that for a second. If we are so "small and insignificant" how can it be that our ASKING summons the POWER THAT CREATED WORLDS?

Believing and Allowing are next. Ask and know that it is DONE! Say thank you God, for it has been done, I have sought the Kingdom of God and asked this: So Above, So Below. I have asked manifestation that brings brilliance, hope and beauty. I have asked to receive the gift of writing and communication. I have asked to perceive and receive. In the Lord's prayer we ask to not go down the rabbit hole of delusion, and deception.  Interesting in light of the polarity.  The contrast is always present.  Lead us not into it, but we need not invite it. 

When I was sick, I prayed to be well. When there was violence,... I prayed for peace. When my parents fought, I would get sick with asthma, in the hospital there were powerful beings with me.  Little did I know my heartfelt asking could change my world. Little did I know that I create(with the Blessing of the Universe) my reality. I could have never known that God delights in my creations and they are Celebrated in the Many Mansions of God.  Blessed is she/is who sees that.

Meekly, I take over the world by melting hearts and loving. Swords and bombs can never do that. And truly my pen is mightier than any weapon.

Blessed, Blessed am I.  We all are blessed.  Just Ask and then open your heart. 

Radical, Magical, Time Management: Abraham-Hicks Style

Her Majesty's Time

New Way to Allow More Time Management (Abe-Hicks Style)

We all know linear time is a joke?  How people and events dovetail eludes us. But we try to be "on time" and show up.

This concept is new to me and yet...in the past this has happened many times, and with some criticism from the peanut gallery. More on this...later.

There have been times I say to people, I just don't have time. There are times I bite off more than I can comfortably chew and I start to feel overwhelmed, tense and stressed out.

There are times I just plain procrastinate. I organize time to study or clean my often messy bedroom and yet, other things just grab me and I get derailed.

Time management is a huge issue in our world today. Neale Walsch says just showing up is more than half the battle. For the most part, I really try to show up. There is a bit more to this story (at least for me). Abraham states that one person connected to their Source Energy is more powerful than thousands who are not. Imagine showing up, connected and fully present, because that energy can change the outcome of things.

Imagine showing up at a board meeting fully plugged in? I find that the plugged in part has little to do with me personally. I just surrender to the situation. That seems like the easy way out, but actually no, something nothing short of a miracle often happens. For example you are on a steering committee and there are big personalities, and they seem to dominate with their vision and intentions, I get frustrated because I am not being "heard". That shows that I have my ideas and ego just as much present. Recently, I learned to assess the players, remove myself from this frantic energy, balance and ask for connection. I simply ask and allow. There is no force with this. And I'll be a monkey's uncle if it doesn't really happen. I feel quiet and at peace instead of "in pieces". All of a sudden someone asks me, "Nancy, what do you think?" Like a John Travolta devotee, when offered the stage...TAKE THE STAGE! That is what made John famous. I am surprised what comes out of my mouth and I am personally amazed at the confidence with which I say it. I remember being on the church board years ago and feeling "butt hurt" about not being heard. There is this young women who was not validated for her good ideas and abilities...long ago. Her family did not really "get" her. Yip, that was me. I don't have to play that part anymore. I am fully validated by the Universe.

Ok that is the experience of showing up and being inspired before you speak or act. That is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. This is very different than the leadership we normally experience. The powerful fast talkers seem to prevail and prevail by steam rolling over others. That is hardly what I call success. If I have to steam roll over someone, well, I just lost the game.

But back to time management...that is slightly different but oddly similar.

Put everything on the back burner...yes even appointments. Everything. This is not the way the business world works. Trains run on time. It is a huge leap of faith and almost counter intuitive to work on the Universal Timing. I am not always allowing for this. It is the most rewarding practice and yet the one that I seem most resistant too. When I lived on the Navajo Reservation in Chinle, we called this living on reservation time. Clocks did not rule the day. The Native Americans are so plugged into a different type of flow of time and things just line up as they should. When some of my black friends used to ask, "hey, Nancy what time is it?" I would look at my watch and they would laugh. That was not what they wanted to know. What time is it now...it is time to get in synch with the Greater Timing. We all have biological clocks, astrological clocks, circadian clocks, and rhythms all around us. A great example is the people who were late to work the day of 9/11. One lady said, It was as if the Universe was using tricks to make me late and miss my train to the down town area where the Trade Center was. The world will criticize being late, and not showing up...but...sometimes...it is exactly the right thing.

What about when you make a promise? Try to keep them of course. Try to comply in this world but I will tell you this. There is a higher authority. The first thing in my Day Planner is: Did I sit with the POWER, did I LINE UP, did I align with GOD, Did I make the Kingdom of God, "hallowed" in the way I put all other actions on the back burner? I will know by the healthy happy way I feel if I did. Did I ask the Universal Manager to help me order my day?

The Universe will help you accomplish so much more than you possible could using your own known ways. Did you ever have a day where everything flowed and it was like you found extra hours in your day, and everything happened easily and succinctly? That is when you are surfing with the Universal Manager.

I do use my day planner...after I have lined up and become inspired I write things down with question marks. And phrases like I prefer to do this...and help me do this because I really don't want to do this. The Universe makes everything joyful.

　

　

　

Cinco de Mayo.Celebrate Each Day the Abraham Way!

There is a place where someone has almost tagged each calendar day as a Holiday.  I looked up my birthday and it is designated as National Camera Day.  I think that is lovely but not exciting to me.

What about a day called "Random Acts of Kindness Day?"  Cool enough.

Lately, there have been some difficult days for me, emotionally and physically.  I imagine calling that day, "I survived it" day.  I think sometimes that is enough.  Take a little Victory Lap around the house and say...don't know why it was a crappy day, it is over, I will let it go...tomorrow will seem brighter.

Allow.  It is often hard to understand the concept of allowing.  I once heard someone describe it this way:

There is a man walking a tight rope a story up from the ground.  A lovely dove flies by and he tries to touch it, almost loosing his balance.  Then a raven flies close to him and he almost loses his balance pushing it away! The balance lies in accepting the gift and experience that comes toward you without losing your balance.  We hold on or try to push things away.

What would I call today?  I think I would call it Amazing Grace Day!  Many things had the potential to go all wrong.  I did some segment intending this AM.  Then someone I know and love called me an "asshole".  I could have let that settle in and take over my emotional state.  I just walked outside.  I took a 10 minute walk.  I remember what Abraham Hicks said about the behavior of others.  The anger and criticize of others 99% of the time is not even about you...it is about them.  It is a private war within of discontent and frustration.  You can seldom change someones perspective in the moment they are most upset, pinched off and out of balance.  There might be a healing conversation later when they are in a better and more receptive state. 

Amazing Grace is so perfect.  I went on to accomplish some goals and at the moment feel pretty good about myself. 

I think I will think of some more really good ways to celebrate and tag my days.  They all matter to me.

PS.  This same loved one threw away my lap top.  He is having a hard time.  I am missing blogging so much and it is sheer therapy.  I found a way. 

I can celebrate "I get to Friggin Blog Day"  no matter what.