Cleaning Out Pandora’s Big Dark Closet
This Was a Day of Contrast
A six minute video called 10 Signs of Spiritual
Awakening is worth watching.
http://youtu.be/txTsbeuY5gM Just place this URL in your browser.
This video mentioned emotional cleaning of old trapped feelings. This is a catch
22 in spiritual growth. This is how I
see it. As I climb the ladder of
awareness and understanding I begin to feel lighter, freer and much happier and
then Pandora’s Box swallows me up. It
feels like a game of Shoots and Ladders and I landed on the wrong square. Whoosh, I am back to square one and so
discouraged. On a clear or calm day I
can see the logic for this. My childhood
had insecure and dark moments. I feel
there was abuse on several levels however I will not go into this victim mode
right now. It really doesn’t help overcome
the abuse. I am convinced that I choose
this family and environment to speed up my progress. My evolution was slow as a turtle I was told
by my Higher Ups. Being an “old soul”
was now getting on the last nerve of my Cosmic Counterparts. My
soul group is prodding me along. It
seems like we have all the time in the world to progress and evolve, but maybe
not. There are so many of us here right
now. I think I wanted to be alive on
earth for the 2012 experience of tipping the balance. If enough humans cross the threshold together
we will shift into a more humane energy.
Life expectancy should increase and mental and physical ailments should diminish
quite a bit. I probably needed a life
time to speed up my pace so I could join the great wave of souls (having a
human experience) as we cross the marathon marker. It really is an exciting event and to be a
participant is awesome.
I left my sometimes sad
childhood just hanging out there. I can
trip on that emotional baggage sometimes.
It is necessary to clean out those memories and elevate those
experiences. It hurt at the time it
happened. As a social worker, I pray we
change the old ways of parenting and in doing so kids will probably grow up
substance abuse free. We can teach them
to roll with the punches and like themselves.
When kids experience abuse they blame themselves. Often times they have the abusive parent on a
pedestal and want to be loved by them.
Somehow that translates as this:
There must be something awful about me, for this person whom I love and
adore to be so unkind and uncaring. It
sometimes takes 50 years of therapy to heal those inner bruises. I accept and love me much more. There is
great wealth in that realization. Then
every now and then poor red headed Pandora shows up..kind of like a meeker Annie. In truth I am neither devil nor angel…I am
human… and that is a privilege. As a
human I can weave the rich tapestry of emotion into my life. I feel so colorful. I am guided towards realizing the Big Picture
by my own amazing emotions. The vector
of spiritual growth is quite curvy with ups and downs and the contrast of
life. For me it is truly a 2012 blessing
to ride the back of discovery via feelings.
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